I'm still that girl in Australia, finding out who I am and what I want.
I'm still the same girl with the same heart.
I still care about the same things. I still miss the same things.
I cry the same tears. My hopes are the same.
The dreams I have are always evolving, but it boils down to the same things; love, partnership, passion.
I want someone that I feel like I have to be my best around. And I want them to pleasantly surprise me.
I want compliments. I will fight the urge to fish- it's true. But in the end I don't want empty compliments, I want you to tell me how you really feel and what you really think. Is it too much to ask what's on your mind?
I still laugh the same.
I have the same bad habits, and the same talents and abilities.
I want to be a better painter. I want to be a better person.
My hope for my future self is that I will be more patient, that I will let others have the glory, and that I will be slower to judge and quicker to trust.
Maybe you deserve my trust until you give me reason not to trust you?
And I hope that I will only need to remind myself that often I don't know what others are dealing with.
They may have just lost a loved one. They may be sick. They may have been cheated on. They may have just been diagnosed with cancer.
The future me is going to be better than who I am today, but only because I want to be and I will build on things that I feel are great about me, and work on the areas needing improvement.
But in the end some things are always the same.
My family is my family, my life is my life. But if I want to change my life only I can do that. I, the same old girl, can make it what I want.
But for right now, I'm pretty content with what I've made so far, and I'm happy just to be able to dream about what could be in the future ... :)
